The following content is of a strong sexual nature please be advised.
Our love is toxic. We are never good for one another, always finding that next way to hurt each other. We take turns
hurting one another, seeing how far we can push the other one away and
if we will continue to keep coming back to each other. It is not what I
want with you, I just want to wrap my self around you so tightly and
suck your soul into mine, receiving the very essence of every thing
that you are. I want to feel all of your hurt and your pain, all your
love, and trust, everything in which you are; I want to experience, and
for what ever reason I cannot get that close, you let me in a little
closer each time, and then push me away further all at the same time.
Living with you in my life is like living in the 6th
circle of hell, in which all the pleasures of a worldly life is
experienced at their fullest potential. Living with out you is like
living in the deepest darkest part of hell, in the slums in which you
can almost experience the pleasures that you want in life, but they are
void and blank never full-filling creating an endless vicious cycle of
hate, anger, and regression in which you can never turn off. I do not
know if there is even a number for that realm of hell, I chose to
believe that it is the one that went for gotten.
After
our most recent of off times I feel my soul cannot bare to be with you
any longer, you have torn me apart for you last time, of course it is
what I have been saying all along, I would never admit that you could
have me for ever if you wanted it that way, that is beyond even my
sickest of mind games to admit that our love could have that kind of
potential. Even I know that deep down inside I might always keep coming
back, but at the end of it all things must change to keep us strong
together. We have to open up more and let the other one in.
The
phone rings, I know it is you... We have not spoken in several weeks,
you have went your stay as long as you can with out me. As I answer the
phone I have it all planned out just what to say, how I am going to
tell you, "No this time!" I will not come to meet you, but as I hear your
voice and can feel your pain, my mind changes ever so quickly and I
Before I know it, I am on my way to you.
As
I arrive at the party where you have instructed me to come, I know that
everything is wrong, I can feel it, but at the same time it feels so
fucking right. I know that I will have you tonight, and that eases my
soul for this moment in time. I walk through the door, I see the
cocaine spread across the table, the smell of weed spread through out
the place as every one I know is smoking, trying to come down from that
cocaine rush, my eyes flow across the room of dancers, and I spot you
there. You are talking to some woman, your hand on her shoulder being
all sweet and romantic just the way you always are. I walk over to you
and smack you on your ass and give you a smile to distract you, the one
you can never say no to and you reach down to grab me close and give me
a kiss of passion, that one I can never resist.
You
pick me up I wrap my legs around you and our souls intertwine like they
always have. Feeling your presence some how keeps me calm on my darkest
of nights. This is where I need to be what I need to have and I can not
ever say it is not, the puzzling thoughts of confession rushes through
my mind for only as second before you close the bathroom door behind us
and turn the lock. Sitting me up on the sink, I am wearing your
favorite mini skirt for easy access, I know that we will have our fun
here before we retire back to one of our places for the night, that is
when we will be together for real but the make up sex always needs to
be at least semi public for it to be any good for either of us.
You grab my hips and fondle my breast, kissing my neck and biting my
ears, just the way that it has to be done for me to really enjoy it.
You know me when it comes to sex like no one else ever could, I could
not trust anyone the way that I do you to let them know my innermost
secretes like I have you. I finally get your pants down and slide your
cock out, It is hard for me already I am soaking wet you take your
plunge in to me as fast and as deep as you can go, grabbing my neck
throwing me up against the mirror behind me increasing the pressure
around my neck as you fuck me harder. I cannot scream I cannot even
breath you are choking me so hard but it sends a flow of ecstasy though
out my body that will cause me to cum my hardest and you know that all
too well. As I start to struggle for air the tears come rolling to
my eyes and I push against you to stop you just throw you self harder in to me, gripping my neck as hard as you can, causing
me to burst wide open all over your dick, my cum goes rolling down your
legs as it drips off your balls. You shove your self deep in to me
releasing the pressure around my neck as you finally fill me up with
you with every thing that you are, you lean in to kiss me and whisper
in to my ear how much you have missed me. My soul forever would be
yours and you know it. My heart you might shatter a million times over
but my soul when you were around could never be broken, and you love
that about me. We slowly pull our selves together and you help me down
off the sink we retire to your place for the rest of the night to go
catch up on the moments we have missed one another and desired that we
could be together in our dark and lonely nights of the past couple of
weeks.
Thanks for Reading..
xoxox,
Minx
